This week, many of us have been inwardly ’shrunken’ by not believing in our ability to change a situation.
The power within the boundaries of our present identities have seemed enfeebled by self-invalidation, and we have been keeping on allowing ourselves to fall away from experiencing the empowering energy of our confident presence.
Subtly depleted life force has been weakening our certainty and enthusiasm and tormenting us with a harsh sense of guilt or repressed unworthiness.
As a result, our driving need to make something happen in our outer world has been in dire conflict with this sense of unworthiness.
At the root of all this, our inner strength is being anxiously muddled by an inherited implant’s dark electronic trance, that sits like a squeezing blackness on our parathyroid glands, that has been driving us away from self-appreciation and from being able to give our love to others on a sustained basis.
In consequence, the feelings within and around us are pulsing in a confused manner, and we may feel anxiously caught between two contrary beliefs - that we want to surrender to the will of Grace, but that we also want to make what we desire happen.
Overlayering this, our sense of guidance and insight is being further confused by our seeming inability to inflow validation or admiration from others. The inflows we wants to receive from them seem to be deterred by a frustrating mistrustfulness in ourselves, absorbed from our tribe or our family, that believes that it is all going to end, so what’s the use.
Thus this implant has also been intrusively smothering us with the frightening sense of an oncoming loss or a great failure.
By processing this out of us over the next few days, we can enter the new year by beginning to truly embrace the Grace that is coming to us.
We will be able to awaken to our freedom, our confident patience and bountiful fulfillment, and know our light-filled majesty!
“Life is a thing that mutates without warning, not always in enviable ways. All part of the improbable adventure of being alive, of being a brainy biped with giant dreams on a crazy blue planet.’ – Diane Ackerman

What a lovely gift for the New Year. Thank you very much .
Wishing us all a beautiful and brighter 2012.
xoxoxox,
bk